101230

我要做到

能平心静气地接受多个批评 !

能理智地不反击 !

能笑着面对 !

101221 ♥

This afternoon when I was cleaning my super duper messy room,

I found lots of primary's memories in it.

The box that I used to put some secret things before.

Spot the child ? That's me ! =P

I think everyone know this if you remember.

五粒子!

I was very pro in this before, you know ? Hehe

And, I realized that I liked to collect things that time.

First, I cut off the drama description on newspaper almost every day.

And even made a book named "Drama" then pasted those I had cut in it.

Second, the last page of 学海.

Third, the entertainment news on newspaper.

DBSK !! T.T

And, the 七仔 !

*Grrrrrrr* xD

I found my diary too.

I don't like to write diary now since I am lazy.

And I prefer typing more than writing lah HAHA

Kept laughing when I was reading my diary.

Childish ! LOL

I used 5 super big plastic bags. O.O

Sorry, I am being so wasteful.

Sorry to the Earth and the trees ! =((

Eventually, I used 2 hours to clean my room.

A BIG BIG different right ? Hehe

Feels so syok now, so cleannn ! =DD

___________________________________________________________

I found a photobook that lots of my mum's photo at Korea in it.

Wow ! My mum in Korean costume !

Isn't she pretty ? ♥

Personally like this photo the most as her smile was so bright ! ♥

Kim Chi Kim Chi !

Ewwwww I hate Kim Chi !

____________________________________________________________

Officially ended my secondary school life.

I will miss the school much.

Thanks to the school for accepting me, let me be the one of them. ♥

Thanks to the principal and ex-principal for leading the school well. ♥

Thanks to En. Lim Thee Ping for treating the students with his heart. ♥

Thanks to my friends for loving me, caring me and trusting me. ♥

Thanks to the classmates and ex-classmates for leaving me such sweet memories. ♥

Thanks to the teachers and tuition teachers for teaching me. ♥

Thanks to the ex-lovers for letting me know about love. ♥

Thanks to the haters and enemies for making me stronger and tougher. ♥

Thanks to the cheerleaders for gaining my experience and teamwork. ♥

And lastly, thanks to my family, especially my parents, for the loving, caring, protecting, and even taking me to this lovely world ! ♥♥

End. =)

101218 ♥

Headed to Education Fair today.
It was crowing like I will be out of my breathe anytime.

Maybe I am not really the shopping type.
The stupid DAMN shoes made me gone crazy !
I thought we will "shop" the education fair very long time,
BUT we just shopped around 1 hour then tak boleh tahan already.
LMAO

Actually it's a wasting of time to go to the education fair IF you don't even know what course to study.
I am the type.
So I was actually wasting time there and made my leg covered with wounds.
LOL

But now, MAYBE I am already decided what to study. Teehee ~ =D


And, I am proud of my sixth-sense. MUAHAHA
I was shocked too, cause what I have predicted before all happened !
*Clap*


And, I found myself so look alike with kashin.
Definitely not the appearance *Totally opposite.*
But the personality, the interest and even our thoughts.
Even twins won't be alike like us.
Cause some twins have opposite personality.


Nowadays I am busy of finding job and thinking about my future.
Economic paper is still there waiting for me to face,
But my heart to study is gone.
2 days left to let me get outta of my secondary life !
Looking forward to the outings after this.
A new life is coming towards me. Wuhooooo ~ =DDD

顺其自然.
有时候迫切的想要一样东西 反而得不到. =)

101216 ♥

选择再也不攻击他人
选择不再执着于从前
选择大方遗忘及宽恕

2008年发生过的事
着实点燃我心里的那把火
但现在 少时的成就有目共睹
全部都是靠她们本身的努力换来的

Anti们的狠毒话语 不但没让她们从此堕落下去
反而让她们更加坚强 更加地努力做好自己的本份
向大家证明 她们并不是其他人想象中那么坏
有时候 还真感谢他们
没有他们 不会有现在的少时

成就 并不是一夕之间就能得到的
而是要经过风吹雨打 经过多个折磨 才能历练出来的

而我们少时就是最好的例子 =)

虽然曾经流过多次泪水 痛苦过 伤心过
但 现在的少时能让她们的国家骄傲 饭们骄傲
让anti们刮目相看

我从来不后悔我是个SONE
没有人可以让我对她们的爱逝去


现在是 少女时代
以后也是 少女时代
永远都是 少女时代 !!!



Forgive and Forget. ♥

101210 ♥

SNSD @ Korea Newspaper (Title: "The choice of 50 million people - SNSD")

SO NYUH SHI DAE!
- Only female group in history to win Disk Daesang.

- Third female artist in history to win Disk Daesang (Others are Lee Sooyoung and Joo Hyunmi who sang Jjarajajja with Seohyun.)

- Only idol in history to win both Disk Daesang and Digital Daesang.
This is incredibly hard, chance of this happening in kpop again is 1%.

I watched 2010 Golden Disk Award in live yesterday night.
I am really so happy and touched when their name called in winning Disk Daesang.
Cause actually I thought Super Junior will win it.
So I didn't expect too much and ready to taniah them already.

But but but !
SNSD won it !
I shouted and jumped with joy in my room.
They cried when they were supposed to give a thank-you-speech.
Cause they didn't expect they will win this award too.

And ELF (Super Junior's fans) started bashing our girls and Sones again.
I knew it, after the second they won it and I knew ELF sure will feel unhappy and angry about this.
"They don't deserve it !"
"The most suitable awards for them is Golden Disk DRAMA QUEEN award !"
Words with full of poisonous came from their mouth.
Once again, before that I really can't stand it and hold my anger.
But I have to prove that Sones have manners.
I knew that there's no point to argue and hurt each others' feelings.
They both came from the same company and their relationships are close like best friends.
Super Junior as senior felt happy to them too, why can't they ?
Okay, I need to stop here right now.
I have mentioned about this issue like thousand times and nothing changed.
I just hope that all fans of different k-pop groups can respect each other.


And I am freaking miss you, Tiffany ! ='((

__________________________________________________________



Another bad news.
Errr girls like to gossip right ?
So do I, I'm a girl too okay ? LOL

My sis and I were gossiping the "suicide" issue yesterday night.
And I viewed their sweet photos, blog, facebook status and the "last letter".
My sis got his facebook account so I could view and knew a lot of things about this issue.

It happened at the midnight 12am 9th of December.
Actually I admire (not liking, is 佩服) those who have the courage to commit suicide.
Doesn't it pain ? @@

My mood went down after knowing this.
I felt sad to both of them.
"Love is blind." This is a phrase for those who think love is everything to them.
And he was really blind.

The world is so wonderful.
Depends on what you think of it.

I would not choose to end up my life like this.
I want to enjoy my life, I want to know more about this world.
=))

R.I.P

________________________________


As you all know, my mum went to Korea yesterday.
Recently our family's relationship becomes great. Teehee ~ =D
When she was going to leave home, person who don't use to say those "sweet-talking" like me,
Told her to stay safe.
Even "stay safe" to me is "sweet-talking". LOL
How serious is this.

I felt like out of breathe after saying this to her.
Cause this was the first time. Ek hem ~

Anyway, hope that she is enjoying now and don't keep worrying about us.
We're not children anymore okay ? =DD

♥

101206 ♥

2 weeks left to FREEDOM !

My mind just can't get rid of the life after the stupid exam.

Money money come !

My to-do-list after exam :

-Slim down

-New hairstyle

-Part time job

-New clothes for Chinese New Year *Sponsored by my mum ♥*

Really thanks God that I didn't kena National Service.

More time to earn money.

3 papers more to go.

Account, Chinese and Economics.

Errr the papers that I used to get low marks.

So, stop day-dreaming and focus on the 3 subjects first !

.

..

...

....

.....

......

What course to study in college ?

I'm still in the dark. Sigh.

Any suggestion ? LOL

心寒.

说到底 我也只是个便利贴女孩.

101128 ♥

Went to Kashin's house for studying today.

Blue light again. Urghhhh ~ (Without contacts and any make up on)

My hair condition has gone worse recently.
The picture is shown.
Gosh, I want my smooth hair back !




I got the news that SNSD will be coming to Malaysia next year for a concert.
It is just a rumor, but it makes me happy enough !
Hope it is real and I'm attending for sure !

Why was Jessica crying ?
Because she just knew that her sister, Krystal, fainted while her performance was going on.
Don't cry, Sica ~ ='(
It shows the sister's love. =DD

希望那个小偷能得到上天的惩罚.

101127 ♥

Recently my mind is full of memories of childhood.
All the people started changing their profile pic to cartoons,
It reminded me a lot of the happy memories with the cartoon network and disney channel.

I love to being a child.
No worries, no complicated, no problems.

Suddenly I think of a PS game that I used to play when I was still a child.

Fighting Force !

I liked to use the girl with red jacket.
Because she is pretty. LOL

I don't like dancing game anymore.
I prefer fighting and racing game.
I am not a violent person okay ? HAHA
I am kind of boyish while playing games.

I think that I got the potential in playing games.
But not the books of course.

I am so gonna buy a PSP for myself when I am rich.
Oh yeah ~~~ =DD


____________________________________________________________

Kept watching Tiffany's videos yesterday.
(Errr, you're not supposed to study yesterday ?)
Okay, back to the topic.
Sad to know that, I knew that Fany's mom had gone when she was in childhood.
Now I only knew ! WT... ?
She is tough.
Extremely tough.
She is like a role model to me.



I cried badly when I was watching this.
Please, antis. stop doing childish behavior to her and the rest of the members.

And, please do APPRECIATE your mom.

Love Fany. ♥

101125 ♥

终于考完了历史
说实在 也没有轻松到哪里去
想到下个星期还有很多科目等着我 我就不禁紧张了起来

对自己不是很有自信
就算读了 努力了 尽力了 也怕自己会不及格
尤其是这次历史
这次应该是第一次paper 2写这么多了
不过都是乱乱写 很多也空着
有些背过的 都忘记了
有些辛苦背下来的 都没有出
只能听天由命
真的是 拜托拜托拜托 我只求及格
我不期望会拿个好成绩

最近很开心 因为爸爸妈妈对我的态度都好好
尤其是爸爸
都会问我 我的近况
刚才妈也问我关于今天的考试 我说有点难 (其实是很难 只是不想让她受打击 哈哈)
她也说没关系 尽力就好 哈哈~
这样让我更不想让他们失望
再也没有"下次"了 所以会尽力做到最好
朋友们 也要加油啊~

这几天都在马不停蹄地读书
搞到现在我头脑有点接近当机
所以今天想好好休息一下 明天再奋斗~
有时候太逼自己去读书 反而会得到反效果
所以适当的休息 是应该的 嘿嘿

刚才一口气追完了之前没看完的韩国综艺节目
一个字 爽 ! 哈哈
不过到了明天就得收拾心情 继续努力读书了~
只要想到考完试过后的美好生活
就让我充满力量 哈哈哈

一个月过后 就是圣诞节了 !
期待 期待~

好矛盾 有时候 想时间过得快些
但有时候 却希望时间永远停在那一刻 ...




这些问题永远都解决不到 如果我的想法太过于执着
说出去了 解决了 也会重蹈复撤
所以不想理了 只要专心在考试上 就不会变得情绪化

后会有期. =)

昨天是个很有意义的日子
我过得很尽兴 也有遗憾 也有伤心 也有不舍
很复杂

早上收拾书包的时候
一直告诉自己说 不能哭
因为带着隐形眼镜 而且哭了很丑 眼睛会很肿

过后就带着这个心情去学校

没想到我和巧芯的发型很配下 =PP
一个马尾在左边 一个在右边

校长的致辞就不说了
这是最后一次听你致辞 所以就忍了 =)
之后就是我们学生拿sijil的时间
说真的 很紧张
也不懂在紧张个什么屁
那种心脏跳动一直在加速的感觉 真的很难受

但过后 我却拿不到自己的sijil
应该是有人不要还给我
不要这样嘛 就算再不舍得我 也不要用这种方式嘛 xD
不过最后也拿回了啦

终于 毕业歌一播 那个旋律一窜进我耳朵
我崩溃了 大哭
我真的很讨厌毕业歌 小学六年级毕业的时候 也是这样
哭的时候 一直掩着脸 丢脸啊~ 不想被别人看到
还哭到抽泣 ==
真的 说好不哭的...
却失败了
冷静过后 我就问:"有tissue吗?" "我的隐形眼睛有掉吗?" xD
那时候真的有点怕隐形眼镜会掉
不然会变成怪胎

拍照的时间到了
一直死命拉朋友来拍照
不是很认识的 也照拍不误 哈哈
不过之后也发现到 我也没和很多人拍到 唉~

我的姐妹们~ 不过少了babe =((

我亲爱的3E家人们 !! *不过左手边那位不是啦~

5B家族 !! 这么多张照片里 最爱这张啦

因为大家都笑得好开心 =DD
我几幸运下 就站在老师隔壁 嘿嘿

拍完了过后 就去jun wen家换衣服
本来想穿班服的 不过算了 以后吧
之后我看到我脚的"伤"越来越严重
已经呈现紫红色了 超丑的 ><

之后我们就出发去the curve唱K啦~
房间很大 因为很多人 大概14人吧
那时候 有点对不起geng jie 看他一个人很闷在那边
还有 我先声明 其实我真的没打算点少女时代的歌的
因为我知道 那班很少人喜欢韩国歌
不过最后还是有人帮我点了 (谁点的?)

反应就在我预料之中啦
下次别帮我点少女时代的歌啦 免得大家扫兴 唉

第一次用DSLR拍照 有种很专业的感觉 xP

我和yoon yeap有很配咩? 他学我的pose罢了咯~ 哈哈
这张少了老婆 =(

过后6点结束
大家在讨论要续摊还是各自回家
男一班选择回家 除了yy 我们就去ikea吃东西
这是我第一次去ikea
不可思议 ?
我是 1U kaki 但从不去 ikea =x
fatty N年前说好要请我吃那里的ice cream
昨天实现了
虽然只有RM1 (怪不得他会酱好请我 xD)
不过真的很好吃 !!
下次一定要再去那儿买来吃 ~

吃完过后 就出发回家了
不过也闹了不少笑话
差点走错路去bate cave拜神
甚至去云顶的mc donald吃东西 xDD
就这样搞到差不多8点才到家


今天大家都狂放照片 狂tag
哇 其实我有种想remove tag的冲动
怎么我就这么不上镜?
好丑哦 !!!!!!!!!
我可以安慰自己说 真人比照片好看得多吗 ?
哈哈哈哈 发神经~

本来想写对朋友们的opinion的
不过这篇够长了
怕有人会读到睡觉 ==
算了 下次吧

大家先考好这次的考试吧
考完试后 大家再疯 ~
后会有期 =))

Desire.

"After SPM, I want blah blah blah..."



This is the hot topic that I keep mentioning when I was chatting with my friends.
Even though the exam is really around the corner.
8 days to go !
But seems like I have no fear on it.
What to do ?
I have no idea. =x




Okay, exam always makes my mood down, so just keep it away.
I have been given much thought on this,
I wanna live a better life and create a new me after the exam.

First,
I want to slim down !
I want a slim body, but not thin.

This is what my body shape looks like.

So, I decided to do exercise every morning at desa park city after exam.

Join me if you are interested. =)

I want a pair of long legs like them. =)

Skinny jeans look good on slim girls only. =(

And, I need to care more about my skin.
Dark circles, acne, skin tone uneven.
I want back my white and fair skin like when I was a baby. LOL


Second,
I'll definitely find a part-time job.

This is what I face now.
Lack lack lack lack lack of money !
This month spent a lot. =(

So, at the meantime, my eyes change to the money shape like him. =x

I hope that my house is full of money.
So that my dad and sis don't have to work so hard. *Sigh*

Third,
DRESS !
I'm so into the dress right now.
I'm not fashionable, I don't have any fashion sense.
But I know what looks good on me.
Window-shopping is really suffering. ='(
I'm so gonna buy those dresses when I have lot of money.





Forth,
I don't know what hairstyle I want, but this hair color is freaking nice !
I love it !
Can somebody tell me what color is this ?




Everyone has their own desire.
I have mine too.
So, I'll work on it !
Hwaiting ! =D ♥

I love the day. ♥

The 5Bians and our beloved Pn. Cheong with her husband. =)
Opps, it should be the 5Best ! ♥

The very last day of being a KBian or a secondary student is gonna end so soon.
6 days left, including the graduation day.
Appreciate every minute, even every second.
Although the graduation day is on 16th of November, but we have decided to make our gathering earlier.
Another nice gathering after Momo Paradise last time. =)

We had our gathering at D'Fortune, Menjalara.
Before that, actually I have cheated on Kashin them that I couldn't make it to the gathering.
I wanted to tell them the truth so many times as Kashin said she didn't want to go if I absent.
So, I kept persuading her to attend.
And, it was a success ! Hiak hiak hiak ~
Surprise ! =DD ♥

Took tons of photos there through facebook, kept spamming the news feed. LOL
I had no more image, many of my ugly photos there.
But I don't care, those photos were the most natural side of me. =D
I don't have to act pretty or whatever in front of them.
They made me feel comfortable. =)

After that, we headed to Tesco for movie until 12am something.
"Thank you, Pn. Cheong !"
Dismissed. =)


It was around 1am when I reached home.
I was nervous because I scared that my mom will scold me.
But, no.
Somehow I felt sadder, it shouldn't be like this.

My mood was going down.
I reviewed myself about 20 minutes in the toilet.
I cried.

Yesterday night was awesome.
The night that I will never ever forget.
This night have categoried in "memories".
And, an alert to me.

20 days left to SPM, DON'T disappoint them again.

在你得到真正的自由之前 你必须好好的约束自己 .


To my lovely 5Bians,
We shared the same classroom for 2 years, but now we only close to each other.
Honestly, I usually think that my form 3's life is better than form 5's before.
There was so many people that we less chatting with.
But until this year, I realised that our relationship is getting closer and closer.
And, we just have 6 days left.
Time passes without knowing.
So, appreciate.
I love spending time with you all.
Thanks for giving me such an awesome gathering. =)) ♥

I have to cure the facebook virus from now onwards.

I want .

I want to be tough.
I want to be cheerful.
I want to be selfless.
I want to be slim.
I want to be pretty.
I want to be confident.
I want to be patient.
I want to be hardworking.


Get rid of emotional.
Get rid of selfishness.
Get rid of cowardly.
Get rid of inferiority.
Get rid of high-tempered.
Get rid of laziness.



The perfect Tan Mui Hui is created.
But, nobody is perfect. =)


So, I should improve myself.
To increase my presence.

我的一切
都只是在显示别人的美好

10.22

发觉到 我对待事情的态度是极端的
对于我喜欢的事物 充满热情
对于不喜欢的 甚至可以置之不理


在学校科目方面 也是一样
我喜欢的 我可以从早到晚 废寝忘食地 拼命做习题
不喜欢的 我连碰都不想碰


所以 考出来的成绩
也很极端 ==
好的 可以很好 差的 可以很差


我就是挪不出那一点热情 在我不喜欢的科目上
不喜欢就是不喜欢 要怎么样才能勉强喜欢 ?


众所周知 我很喜欢英文 (但华语还是我的母语啦~)
说真的 我并不觉得我的英文很好
英文好过我的人 多得是
从小 我就很喜欢读英文
只要看到书上有英文字母
我都忍不住会读一读
到现在也是


喜欢读 并不代表就会讲
讲英文这方面 我可以说是超级烂
以前爸就一直叫姐和哥和我讲英文
但到最后 还是讲回华语 ==
已经习惯了嘛


称赞 真的能鼓励一个人
至少是对我来说
当别人称赞我 我就会想做得更好 =)



还剩一个月
我能吗 ?

10.21

Saw my header ?
Yeah, it's the latest SNSD's concept !
Hoot ~
And my Tiffany is the one with red ~
Super gorgeous and sexy *giggling* =D

Everyone of them are so pretty !
Can't wait for their comeback stage !
29th of October at Music Bank !
*Exciting*


________________________________________________________


I am so in good mood nowadays.
Close to my girls, and some of the 5bians too.

We had dinner at Momo Restaurant on Tuesday night.
Finished our food and blew the birthday cake's candle, we played game.
Some of them, their legs had been beaten until the somatic cells has died.
But, the relationship between us becomes closer and closer.
We were classmate about 2 years, but now no more strange.
Late better than never. =)



When I was updating this blog post,
My mom came into my room in a sudden and showed me a paper.
GOSH, it was SURAT AMARAN !
It stated that I have been absent for 10 days.
And the funny part was, it counted from January until August.

What is the big deal ?
I am not the student that absent 1 or 2 days in each WEEK.
This letter made my white paper appear a dirty spot.
My mom asked: "Why are you absent 3 days in April and August ? You hang out with your friends secretly during school is it ?"
I was like ==lll
"No !!" I tried to protect my reputation. LOL
"Don't pretend ahh !" Unsuprisingly, don't believe again.
"You think my friends are willing to accompany me play truant meh?"
Then my mom laughed.
Phew ~
Some of the days were the replacement class, I did tell her about this, but she forgot.

Fortunately, Pn. Cheong didn't write wrong my dad's name. xD

得到的同时
是不是 意味着
失去的到来 ?

♥

继续过你的日子
别再来打扰我 和我的朋友们
你过你的 我过我的


随便你们怎么想
我就是喜欢当坏人
我从来就不后悔 我做出这个选择
因为 这并不是冲动出来的抉择


失去一个 却赚取多个
我很幸福 不是吗? =)

They are always my number 1. ♥

Attention:
Just move your mouse to the "x" button if you are an anti-fan of SNSD.



I dreamed about So Nyuh Shi Dae this afternoon.
They wanna overnight in my house,
I was too excited,
I prepared everything, camera and myself.
Tiffany kept smiling at me. =DD
But suddenly they gonna leave (you know dreams have no logic)
Starting feel nervous.
But I still have to say bye bye to them.
Then, I woke up. =(



Okay, I know.
If there's fans, must have anti-fans too.
But to those anti-fans, please stop being childish.
There's non of my business if you dislike them or even hate them.
But can you all just please shut up?
Is there any advantage for being like this?
I'm sure our S♥NES are much more better than the anti-s.
Not only the number, but the manners.


I don't understand, why other idol's fans keep scolding and insulting our SNSD?
Maybe you don't know, actually there is friendship between idols.

"2NE1’s Minzy thanked SNSD members in the “Thanks to” portion of their full-length album, catching the attention of many netizens. In particular, Minzy thanked SNSD’s Sooyoung, Tiffany, YoonA, andHyoyeon.

Even though 2NE1 and SNSD are rivals under different labels, the fact that they share such good friendships is very heartwarming."

If you really like your idols, please don't make your idol feel sad.
Think, if many people are attacking your friends, how do you feel?


I like many korean groups, they have their own charming, personalities and style.
Somebody would say, "2NE1 just debuted few months ago but already surpassed SNSD which debuted 3 years."
I was like "What?"
These 2 groups obviously have different style, there is nothing to compare.
2NE1 can't be sexy and cute while SNSD can't imitate as hip hop style too.


I found that Youtube has ton of anti-fans hand make videos.
Oh I can say, you all are so care about SNSD. =)
Lip-syncing?
Do you think it is so easy to sing while you dance?
Their live performance are great, do you ever watch that?


Plastic surgery?
Oh, this is common to Korean.
So, what's the matter?
Everybody want to be prettier, is it wrong?
If you wanna do it great as an entertainer, first, you must have good-looking.
Everybody care the appearance, right?
Then, you don't have the right to blame them for doing plastic surgery.

No talent on them?
This is a terrible reason that an outsider usually say.
Just shut up if you don't know them.

Making lot of mistakes?
Oh who has no mistakes in their life?
Those mistakes are cute for me.
But for the anti-s, they are like "It's normal to see them making the mistakes."
Excuse me, this is not easy to become an idol.
You don't know how they work hard.


I really can't stand those anti-s' poisonous mouth.
Someone said to me "You angry also no use, they (SNSD) also don't know."
But they are my idols, the 9 girls that I really like so much with my heart.
Who can endure other people say your idol in front of you?
This is my natural respond.

Like I said,
其实 做百件好事 都比不过做了一件坏事. 因为 人 通常只记得你的坏 却从来不提你的好.

I like them for 2 years.
I know their things more than you do. =)

SNSD is ♥

10.12

我 始终都是一个人


惯了


=)

The day.

What a boring Monday.
But it was quite fun at school.

We counted the number of couples have been created by Form 5 in our school.
We counted so far, there's 40 couples !
And numerous of them are handsome guys or pretty girls.
Wow, please take note, many of them have been taken LOL

Others were busy revising the account.
But I was sleeping there.
Well, you know me~
HAHA just kidding, don't punch me

When that was about to dismiss,
I was asking my classmate to fetch me back.
But that Fatty Black refused.
Good coconut ~
After that, I was tired of "arguing" with them.
So I just went to sit Po Yee's seat.

And my girls thought that I was emo-ing LOL
I really wanna view the scenery only.
I was quite disappointed that I can't sit beside the window.
I like to observe the car, the pupils, the weather and ect.
I can do it without any talking in 1 hour or few hours.
Never feel boring.

Thanks Sin Roong for fetching me back.
Chee Sin, Fatty and others, sorry for being a troublemaker.


30th of October is our graduation day.
18 days left !
Time passed so fast, huh ?
My study life in secondary school is gonna end so soon.
Complicated feelings.
The memories, between my friends and me, are tattooed in my heart.
Do things that you really wanna do.
Otherwise, you'll definitely regret after this. =)

对不起
我只是 真的很讨厌被冷落.

感触.

觉得自己心里的年龄开始逐渐老去
回想以前
当时的我
多么单纯
多么愚蠢
多么幼稚

这是自然现象吧
长大了
成熟了
看事情的角度也不一样了

但 成熟了 事情想得更多 顾虑的事更多
不知不觉 开心慢慢地和你绝缘了

有时候 想想
为什么我要是个巨蟹座的人
情绪化 往往是我的致命伤
前一秒开心的大笑 后一秒摆个正宗臭脸
我不懂得掩饰
也不想要掩饰
开心的时候挂个笑容 伤心的时候嘴角低落
生气的时候邹邹眉头 发呆的时候眼神空洞
因为 我想让我亲近的朋友们知道我的心情
因为我不善表达
有时候观察我的表情就能洞悉一切

经历过的事情 改变了我 改变了一切
有时候 区区一个小小的抉择 你的一生就会改变
而我 当然曾经做过了让自己后悔的抉择
无论是在友情里 还是爱情里
但 现在的我 过得很开心
撇开考试 撇开自由
我很满足于我现在的生活
身边围绕着我爱的家人 朋友
但 寂寞感 有时还是会向我袭来

哈 语无伦次了
心里 脑里所想的 一股脑地都写了出来
严重离了题

或许是 突然想起以前的回忆吧
我就是这样 念旧 =)

Sick.

Short update here.

What's wrong with me ?
Running nose, fever, cough, even my eyes swollen again too.
Actually I wanted to attend school today,
I wanted to chat with my girls since there's less teacher is teaching.
Cause on Wednesday, my wife and those guys talked about me. LOL
So regret that I played truant that day, sigh.

When I used to be a child, I got many love and caring when I was sick.
My dad will call my mom for asking my situation.
My mom will wake up early in the morning and wake me up to eat medicine.
They will ask me, "How are you now?"
"Feel hot?"
"Sweating?"
I love the feelings.
But I know when others get sick, the anxiousness is killing me.

So, I don't want to let myself get sick easily.
And make my parents worry me so much.

Now I just hope that I can recover as fast as possible.
This is so cruel to me that I can't eat or drink something cold.
And my stuffy nose make me can't sleep well.
GOSH

But friends,
I will recover soon.
Don't worry. =)

Realised.

Yeah, although the trial is going on,
But it will never stop me from watching any shows.

The American Next Top Models.
Watched whole 11 episodes in a week.
I have learned many things in it,
Not about the modeling or the pose, but the reality of these girls and this society.

Obviously, everybody as a competitor, there's no "true friends" between them.
Their mind are full of "champion", "number 1" and ect.
They don't care whether you once treat them nice.
If you are the one who they think will affect their ranking,
They definitely will consider you as their rival,
and promise themselves that they will defeat you someday.

And, they are really too mean for me.
They are straight forward, they won't think about what should she say, what shouldn't she say.
They behave according their mood.
So, arguments have always been created.

But, there's something I really admire.
Their GREAT confidence.
Nobody could let them down.
Even though they know that someone or many girls are talking their bad,
They just remain confidence and continue the competition.
"Don't let others affect your mood, you live for yourself."
"Just be classic."

Sometimes I just don't understand why some of them have high confidence of themselves?
Yeah, nobody is perfect.
All you need to do is love yourself, treat yourself nice.
But don't forget to review yourself too.
Know well of your weak point, and improve it.

Oh, I can say, I am much more better than some of them. =D

There's still many things for me to learn,
I am still a little bit care about the others' opinion on me.

I'm not the best, but I would be better.
=)

"Empty vessels make the most noise."

________________________________

Check this out,
The long awaited music video,
SNSD's Gee Japanese Version ! ♥

* Anti-s, get a life. =)

He's just not that into you.

Oh, come on,
He's just not that into you.
=(

我爱你 你爱她
咦 怎么这世界 已经没有人相爱
=(

I miss you.

5o++ days to SPM.

I don't feel sad because of this.
SPM makes me mad.

Just because of trial,
My aches keep popping out on my face.
Make me look even uglier.

I do really try my best.
=)

I miss you,
And you'll never know.

Just for Mr.Lim . ♥

Today, we bid farewell to our lovely discipline teacher, Mr. Lim Thee Ping.
He taught in this school for 22 years.
Guess how old is he ? xD

The farewell ceremony is the most special that I have never seen before.
The performances were awesome.
Taekwando team used my idol, SNSD's song, so I like it so much ! =D
And the dance performance, especially when Kuan Tee went down from the stage and hugged Mr. Lim. =)

Can't control my tears so many times.
The video that directed by those prefects,
It is so warm and touching.

He become an important person to our school, to everyone.
Wondering that whether our school will become worse without him.

To those bad students in this school,
Maybe feel so freaking happy that he's leaving school.
But, there's still many students and teachers love him so much.
He is just doing his job as a discipline teacher.
Not that Mr. Lim is strict or whatever.
Before that, please think that whether you are a well-disciplined student.
He treats good student well, treats bad student worse.
This is what a discipline teacher supposed to do.

I consider as a good student, so I love him. =)

He treats me so good.
I remembered that he tried to concern me when he saw my face look pale.
I remembered that he wanted to give me tonic because I was sick that time.
I remembered that he asked me whether I am poor because he thought that I have no money to buy breakfast.
And one more, since my Kim Peng reminded me, so I add up here.
He asked me not to cry as I get 2nd in cheer leading competition and said that our Rajawali is the BEST and NUMBER 1 for him. *claps* =)
And he successfully made me cry more.


How considerate of him. =D

We should feel lucky that we have him.
Somehow some of them still don't know appreciate him.
Just because the hair problem, always get caught by him.


Today, there is something I was so regret.
I didn't get his hug. =(
I had the chance, but I lost it.
Damn it !
He was just standing right in front of me.
Near the guard house.
Actually I was not supposed to be standing there.
But Kashin and me ran there secretly.
And the prefects didn't care.
If I don't care what others' think about me,
I will just hug him.
But fortunately I got the chance to high 5 with him. xD

Lastly,
All the best to you, En. Lim.
You know we will always love you. ♥

I love his bright smile so so much. ♥