August 19

The first week of 2nd semester went to an end.

It's Friday night ! :D

This semester takes me 4 months so the timetable is much more flexible than before.

I just have to go to college 3 days a week.

Friday's class is kind of annoying cause I have to wake up early and there's only one class to attend on that day.

But luckily I have Ms.Intan as our English lecturer.

It just feels different that many of them are no longer same class with us.

I miss those DCM's buddies !

They are active, talkative and friendly.

Sometimes I feel that I could hardly join them but they treat me as their friend.

*SMILE* They're just... Awesome !

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For your information, I have become an admin of Tiffany's page.

It's not what official page but a random page.

But I'm still so happy bout this cause I LOVE TIFFANY.

I want to contribute something for showing my love to her.

It sounds silly but you wouldn't know if you never experience it before.

A billion thanks to Nolf as he chose me among the rest.

Maybe because he knows me so he chose me. LOL

I don't even know that time he's managing a page and he is a huge fan of Seohyun.

I found out after I knew him couple of months.

The world is small, right ?

Or I should say, Malaysia is small ? LMAO

This is what the page looks like.
Come and support !
I'll update you guys all about Tiffany's news ! :D

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As you can listen, I have changed the song to "Almost" covered by Jessica.

I just can't stop listening it.

Her voice totally suits this song.

"I missed the time that we almost shared

I miss the love that was almost there

I miss the time that we use to kiss

At least in my dreams

Just let me take the time and reminisce

I miss the times that we never had

What happened to us we were almost there

Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had

Never almost had you"

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August 11

Seriously time flies and 3 days more my semester break is going to an end.
I don't like holiday before cause I couldn't meet my friends as usual and chit-chatting at school.
But now, I wish there were an unlimited holiday.
Not that I don't have any buddy there but I'm shivering whenever I think about the second semester.
It's gonna be another tough semester.

Holiday is way too short to enjoy.


Ms. Intan revealed the top 5 students of each class today.
And as what I expected, I'm not in it.
If I were, there will be a party that organised by me. LOL

The English test was seriously difficult like shit *Maybe only for me.*
Some of my classmates complained the test with me but THEY ENDED UP GETTING INTO TOP 5!
Apalah ni, easy then easy lah, no need so considerate of me. x)
Anyway, Congratulation to those who get in top 5.
Including Kashin !!
You did well. :DD
Hwaitaeng together!!


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SM official Youtube page released Bad Girl Teaser yesterday out of a sudden.
And the music video is to Thank you as their Japanese album has being sold 800000 copies.
I just knew it after I watched the music video.
Honestly I felt a little disappointed cause it's so plain and no any solo shot of them.
But I appreciated them as they even made a music video just for thanking.
It's enough. :D
They are saving the power and I believe they will make a perfect comeback and make many of them know their hidden talent. Teehee~


Here are some screenshots by me...

Her sexiness is killing me !!!!

The coolest bad girl ever !!!

OMG ! The best screenshot. Buahaha
GODDESS

Her eyes will kill you a million times.

Hyoyeon !! She's getting more line now and I'm so happy to see that. DANCING QUEEN JJANG !!

Sooyoung recently is getting sexier and sexier !! Can't take my eyes off her during their live performance.

The cutest bad girl !! LOL

The black pearl is riding on a bike !!
COOL

Another GODDESS.

I don't care what others think of them.
BITCH.SLUT. It's up to them.
They are always the number 1 to me.
I love other girl groups too, like Miss A, After School, 2NE1, T-ara, Kara and so on.
Cause I know how hard they work, they've been through all the hardships since they're young.
I appreciate them for entertaining us.
So actually we don't have to right to criticize them.

I.L.O.V.E.K.P.O.P.


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See these scratches ?
I dropped it many times but luckily it's still alive.

Wish to buy a new phone but I don't want to waste money cause I have a lot of things to buy.
And Girls' Generation concert that held on February next year in Singapore !!!

Just some random photo.
The weather is too HOT.

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August 1

Abandoned my own blog for so long, and now it's already the 1st day of August.

And today is our 7 months anniversary. Teehee :D

My semester is going to end soon and I'm going to miss some of them.

Crazy friends yet they're serious when it's the time to do their work.

I screwed up my final presentations and I was so upset.

I still can't get over the nervousness when I saw all of them were staring at me.

But be positive, at least I've already improved a lot compared to my high school oral test.

LOL.

Today is my bias, Tiffany's birthday !

I just love her everything. :D

Saengil Chukahae~~ :3

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ATTENTION: THE POST BELOW IS EXPRESSING MY TRUE FEELINGS. IT MAY DESTROY MY IMPRESSION IN YOU.

Feels so sorry to my sis.

I've being so immature.

She is so inclusive to me but I just don't appreciate what she has done to me.

I'm really lousy in expressing my feelings.

I write and type well, but when it comes to speaking it out loud, I just can't.

To my family, my friends, I'm the type who always keep quiet and like holding a lot inside me.

Yeah, I admit it.

I don't know how to speak it out, I feel embarrassing.

And also I care about what others think of me.

I want a good impression to others.

But all ended up messing it up.

And my impression to them eventually destroyed.

Maybe I care a lot, and at last it goes to the opposite way.

I don't want it to happen, but it just happened.

Sometimes I don't know myself well too.

Some of them told me that I'm mysterious, maybe even myself also don't know what exactly I am.

I lied a lot.

Even to my family.

I lied, cause I don't want them to get mad at me.

I lied, cause I think it's better they don't know the real story.

I lied, cause I think it's harmless.

But I didn't think much of the consequences.

Karma.

I deserve it.

I used to make up fake-stories, and it totally broke the trust between me and my family.

Our relationships aren't as good as others think of us, I seldom talk at home.

I never have a heart-to-heart talk with my sis before.

What 姐妹情深? I never feel it until now.

So I used to envy those who are close to their family.

I don't actually have a person who can make me release the evil-me.

No offence to my friends and him, I keep some secrets from friends too.

Some secrets that contain the evilness.

I just can't tell, cause I don't want to destroy my good impression to them.

I just want to show the good side of me but not the bad one.

It's actually the worst.

I'm not the person who you think that who I am.

I am worse than that.

A lot.

I still want to believe that I'm a good person.

But, no more excuses.

Don't try to convince or comfort me that I'm actually good.

No, you're wrong.

My family already disappointed in me.

But still accept me as their daughter, their sister.

I'm such a failure right ?

No showing any appreciation to them, keep on blaming them with ridiculous reasons.

I don't know what to do.

I just dare to express my feelings here but not in front of them.

I love them, my family, my friends.

But why I keep on doing wrong things and make them disappointed ?

I gave a lot of empty promises.

Promised them that I will do well in my exams, but the lousy results always made them sad.

I did want to do things well, but every time my perseverance had just gone at the end.

I just don't dare, don't dare to tell the truth.

I already used to cover it with lies.

I'm not perfect, far far away from "perfect".

But just feels like the negative side of me starting to control me again.

I want to be positive, so I act to be positive.

I thought it will guide me to positive.

But still the negative controls me easily.

Think too much is always my weakness.

So does timid in me.

I'm a coward.

Showing only the good side of me just because of afraid losing them.

I'm scared if I'm a bad person to them, they will leave me.

And I'm all alone.

I lose the courage.

The main reason I love Girls' Generation, is that I want to be like them.

They're perfect.

Their appearance, their kindness, their talents, everything.

I don't love myself.

That's why I don't have confidence.

They used to say we have to love ourselves first before we love the others.

But, I don't see any reason to love myself.

I'm not that pretty.

I'm not that slim.

I'm not that kind-hearted.

I'm not that clever.

I'm just, unnecessary.

They made me feel like I'm the unnecessary one.

They have a perfect daughter like my sis.

They have a clever son like my bro.

But never for me.

I don't know why I have these negative personalities.

I remember I have a great childhood.

My dad loved me until my sis was jealous of me.

I treated it naturally.

But I'd gone worse the older I grew.

From angel to devil, it's just so easy.

Would I go to hell when I die ?

Why am I so annoying ?

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