Future .

I doubt about my future.
I don't know what can I do now.
And I'm so worried.

I have interest in Mass Communication.
After the Taiwan's Education Talk today.
Alex, the speaker for the Ming Chuan University, is currently studying Mass Communication.
Gosh, he changed a lot !
He dyed his hair, no more spectacle, became thinner than before.
And !
He became more confident !
He can talk about his experience in Taiwan so bravely.
Is it related to the course that he's studying now ?


Taiwan.
A foreign country that I wanted to go so much.
But, studying there ?
Not such a good idea for my parents.
I admit that my result is quite suck.
Oppss, not quite, is banyak suck.
You think my parents will let me go overseas for studying with the result like that ?
Expired date is on 31th of August.
Even if I want to prove that I put more effort in trial,
No use at all.

Finally I spoke it out one time, in front of my sis.
And you know what ?
She replied:
"You think they'll allow you to go overseas?
Your result is so bad.
Even me, want to go Singapore also can't.
Don't think too much lah you."
Ouch ! It hurts !
Zero confidence.

"Mama, if I say I want to go Taiwan, what you'll do ?"
I can't even imagine the reaction of my mom.
Okay, I know, if I don't try, I will regret one day.
But I don't have any courageous.
Communicate with my dad, it's hard, you know ?
You don't know how narrow minded he is.
He is the kind of person that he thinks he's always right.
And he's very persist about the decision that he makes.
No, then NO !
There's no any possibility that it'll become YES.

Try, yes I will try.
After my English speaking skill has improved.

Asked Fatty to speak English with me.
But, it ended up speaking Chinese again.



Some of you might say,
Why don't you just shut up and start studying now ?
Oh, okay, who's willing to teach me ?




The future's thingy is really bothering me a lot.