Emotional.

I am still wondering who I am.

Even myself, confused.

To strangers, I am arrogant.

To friends, I am friendly.

To best friends, I am talkative.

To the one who knows me well, I am two-faced person.

To be a two-faced person isn't that bad.

I can protect myself from hurt.

I smile and laugh hardly.

But who knows the pain inside me.

I tried not to be emotional.

I blacklisted it.

I tried, I did really try.

But, I have to accept that I was born this way.

"I am fine." It actually means "Why the hell you will think that I am fine?"

"I don't mind." It actually means "It's a bullshit if I say I don't mind."

"I don't care." It actually means "I am so fucking care !"

I like to hide myself.

Locked myself in my own world.

The peaceful world.

Alone.

Where is the "trust" between human?

Where is the "loyal" between human?

Time and money destroy it.

I do care my friends even though they always think that I am not that care.

I do worry, I miss them, I love them.

But I don't know how to express it.

Do they have the same feelings as me ?

Or is it just me ?

There are some negative comments towards me from strangers.

But what can I do ?

I am me.

It will be better if you know me well.

What should I do now ?

I am just hopeless.