June 18

Congratulation !!

RAJAWALI IS THE BEST !!

I've already graduated from secondary school, but I still can't get over the cheer leading.

I miss them so much, I miss the moment so much.

Although we didn't break the record won 7 consecutive years.

Because of me, I think.

Anyway, I couldn't describe the regrets in me for not going to the sports day today.

I thought outsider is not allowed.

I was afraid that they will kick me out when they found me.

I woke up at 5.30 in the morning.

Fully prepared and with high expectation.

But my friends all ended up not going.

And I wasn't dare enough to go alone.

So, STAYED AT HOME.

Fine, I'll just watch the video.

This afternoon, BREAKING NEWS.

A lot of ex-kbians went there and some were still not wearing pj shirts.

I was like "You this idiot, you should go there no matter what!"

Felt so sad I couldn't show up there to support them.

Emo for a little while.

Can't stop regretting now.

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Actually I have to rush my assignment in these 2 days.

But kept watching Girls' Generation's video at last.

I don't know why.

They are like drug to me.

It's impossible not to love them.

I love them equally.

But more for Tiffany and Taeyeon.

There's no people getting last in my ranking.

I love Hyoyeon more after I watched more of her videos in Youtube.

Although she's not the prettiest 1, I love her personalities the most.

I did my presentation with Girls' Generation on Thursday.

They are totally all I am passionate about.

Thanks to some of my classmate for helping me.

I'm so satisfied with my marks. Teehee

Keke I start crapping about my idol again.

Should stop now.

BYE.

June 14

What a day.

A day with full of stress, exciting, tiredness and "what the hell?" day.

And by the way, my blog visitors already reached 10000 people.

LITERALLY.

I'm just a nobody.

But still feel GAY whenever I see the number. LOL

Back to the topic.

The worst presentation ever.

By just reading.

Actually I love the lecturer, she's nice and friendly, and has a sense of humor.

But her class is like, non-stop of researching, non-stop of group work and countless of presentation.

I don't mean that those things are annoying, but, like today, we were just reading it out without any understanding.

So what we've learnt? Nothing.

All copy-and-paste then everything's done.

The only advantage I got is knowing more friends.

Those lovely, talkative and crazy friends. ;P

Okay, today I was like kept crapping about the "mini earthquake".

I've mentioned this more than 5 times today. aha

The power of gossiping.

And here comes the 6th time.

I was doing my presentation that time *actually just chit-chatting there

And 1 woman asked all of us leave the library immediately out of a sudden.

And everybody started running here and there.

I asked what is going on but nobody answered me.

Fine, just followed them without knowing anything.

Reached ground floor, saw a lot of workers there too.

"What the hell is going on here?!" I get no answer.

"You don't know there's an earthquake just now?!"

Errrrrrr...

I felt nothing actually.

This is my first time experienced this, so I was quite exciting that time.

SO BAD.

And some of them just made fun of this.

SAVE THE EARTH.

So the conclusion is,

HURAYYY, there's no class tomorrow !!!

Let her smile make your day! ♥

END.

June 8

Just simply captured it.

They have a really packed schedule recently.

I just want all of them to be healthy. Sob.

Sone forever. ♥

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My college life began on Monday.

And the first class was presentation skill.

Some senior told me what we would going to do and it made me nervous the whole night before the day.

I really get to be panicked easily.

Even an introduction seemed like presentation.

And yes, our homework, a 5-mins-presentation on next Monday.

NERVOUS.

And Tuesday, Mass Com.

I thought that there're no more presentation again, RIGHT ?

UNLUCKILY, NO.

First, the introduction.

Basically your name, the reason that you're here and your achievement.

My achievement would to be more confident and do well in presentations.

Second, group presentation.

Simply explain what is communication.

The next class I feel nervous to, Communication English.

I'll be separate with Evelyn. Cry.

So that our timetable not match anymore.

I should have take car license earlier. Sigh.

Then won't cause any burdensome to others.

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O,O

Actually now already over 12am, so it's June 9 now.

June 9=My dad's born day.

Although I think he already forgot his birthday, I still want to wish him secretly.

Happy Birthday, DAD.

You know I love you. ♥

END.

June 1.

Last Sunday was my best buddy, Evelyn's birthday.

Wondering who is Evelyn ?

Actually is Kashin, lol.

Still not used to call her nickname, and by the way, I'm Elaine.

No more yuna, or kumiko, or yumiko.

Sounded so Japan-ish.

Back to the topic, we went to one-u for celebrating.

Decided to watch movie, but ended up nothing.

It was Sunday, so that's why.

We're all just standing there and going nowhere.

The same situation again.

I was totally sick of it.

"Where you want to go now ?"

"What you want to do ?"

Blah blah blah, then wasted 1 hour doing nothing.

Like so FINALLY, there was a conclusion at the end.

Sing K at 大嘴巴 near Sunway Giza.

结果咧 结果咧 结果咧 结果咧~

Before that, we had our "lunch" at Sakae Sushi.

Oh my lovely SALMON.

Can't get enough of you.

And thanks Ky for belanja-ing us.

I appreciate it.

Then, headed to 大嘴巴.

RM28++ per person.

As that day was Evelyn's birthday, so discount.

I think the cost is okay for Sunday.

I felt sorry that time, cause when I started choosing songs then hard to stop.

Kind of selfish as I chose some unfamiliar songs to them.

Ended up I sang alone and that's kind of awkward.

SORRY. Sob.

After that kept skipping the unfamiliar-songs and let the others sing.

I won't repeat this mistake again.

Blah blah blah.

I'm glad that she likes the present I gave her.

Teehee.

That's enough. ;)

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The following day was the orientation day.

I panicked after I reached my college.

Everybody's there speaking English anywhere.
I felt like I was an outsider that don't know their language.

They spoke like a pro like they're from America.

And mine, MADE IN MALAYSIA.

Had an English assessment test right after the orientation.

As I didn't get an A for English.

For the essay part, I still can use my primary-school-level-english to write it.

But for the objectives, DIFFICULT.

Never mind, it's okay to me for not joining the A's class.

After the orientation, we went one-u for movie.

Once again, ended up NOTHING.

Chill out chill out chill out.

Had our lunch then shopping time !

Bought a pair of shoes at cotton-on.

Super into the cotton-on now.

I love the style and I have the urge to buy all the clothes there.

Thumbs up to COTTON-ON.

The 2nd orientation day was quite boring except the treasure hunt.

The treasure hunt was fresh to me, it's kind of like Amazing Race.

But the lame version.

Amazing Race is much more exciting than that.

THEN, there came the worst part of the day.

NOBODY WAS WILLING TO FETCH US HOME.

And it caused someone who had class that time come and fetch us !

What the ... ?

I'm not blaming the others but yes, my BROTHER.

I called him and he just woke up and he told me he doesn't want to fetch me as he was tired !

What kind of reason is that ?

He promised me that he will bring us home after finishing my orientation.

But he broke it.

We almost had to stay overnight at the college.

So, the orientation overall is okay.

It's a great effort for me to improve my English speaking skill.

By the way, I'm still nervous about my first class.

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5 month 5 month 5 month !

Love you ♥

END

只想发泄.

差不多整个星期没出过家门了.

变到自闭去.

有点不想讲话.

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最近的生活作息变到很乱.

每天睡到四 五点才起床.

直接就skip掉早上和中午了.

然后就会觉得怎么这么快就晚上了.

PPS也越来越闷 我有兴趣的 全部给我看完了.

Facebook也是 看完news feed 就没东西看.

最后 找不到东西做 直接在那边发呆.

一发呆就又会乱乱想东西.

最近有个很可怜的想法一直占据我的头脑.

就是 觉得朋友们和我的距离慢慢远了.

很痛心.

我知道我不应该这么想.

是我自己不主动找朋友聊天.

但是 就是不像之前这么好了.

或许以前一直玩在一块儿 现在很不习惯吧.

不晓得她们最近发生什么事了.

不晓得她们最近有没有伤心的事.

开心的事 想发牢骚的事.

有些事 事情过得久了 就不想再被提起.

我本身就不是那种会主动找人来攀谈的人.

总是等着别人主动来找自己.

或许这样我会觉得自己在那个人的心目中是有一定的位置吧.

我很愿意倾听 但表达能力很烂.

所以她们都说和我说心事 我都不会给反应. 哈哈.

想想下 我这个人怎么这么失败. 囧.

连他妈妈和我第一次相处过后 都说我不是那种socialize的人.

我常常觉得 信息比讲电话好太多了.

知道为什么吗?

因为讲电话有时候难免会尴尬 找不出话题.

我最怕的就是尴尬的时候了.

所以我脑子就会一直自动地想话题.

想这个 想那个 就造成我不是个直率的人.

我会拐弯抹角 避免伤己伤人.

所以我就特别喜欢那些可以互亏对方但不会伤感情的朋友和情侣.

因为有时候想太多 也会累.

太久没说话了 心里想说的话一下子就爆发出来.

长时间不和人沟通也不是件好事.

好想姐妹们.

心里有千言万语 但一看到她们 全部都成空白.

如果家人是空气 那姐们们就是我的食物来源.

和她们相处 会让我得到力量.

我有固定的朋友 我分得清谁是好朋友 谁只是普通朋友.

虽然这样分有点恶劣 但我相信大部分的人都这样吧?

我很怕交新朋友 虽然会很有趣 而且有新鲜感.

但 相对的 得相处很久才能把那个人列为好朋友的阶级.

因为姐妹们在我心目中的位置是很难取代的.

所以其实我的观念就是说 朋友要交就是一辈子的.

如果是拿来利用的话 那还交来干嘛?

有点觉得我在这个社会很难立足. 哈哈.

我很难信任别人 并不是因为我有一个不好的童年 纯粹是个性使然.

我一旦信任了 就是一辈子的事.

果然江山易改 本性难移.

这些坏习惯我想改很久了 但它们就像赖在我身上不走一样.

不过庆幸的是 已经很久没发作了.

有可能是因为现在小姨妈找我? 呵呵

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最近朋友们都说我很难联系.

真的是很抱歉 我的电话好像有问题了.

不是我没回复信息 就是我没收到她们的信息.

唉 感到有罪恶感.

对不起 对不起 对不起 !!

给你们磕头.

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继续唱歌.

让自己有mood一点.

拜.

END

May 17

Brand new background and header !

Today ain't a special day.

I just got bored with the previous background and now I feel so fresh ! ;)

I saw this in their Japan official website and...

I'm too excited till just kept on screaming.

"Gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous" are what all I think about.

Their individual photos came out good, like the best !

Very fantasy !

And I would like to mention Hyoyeon here.

Like finally, they gave her a good-looking and NORMAL hairstyle.

I appreciate it and wow, she looks so good here !

To those haters out there, Hyoyeon IS a pretty girl too !

I'm not trying to persuade you all to like her.

BUT, don't be so mean to say her UGLY.

This is really hurt.

Never mind, 越有争论性的人或话题 在娱乐圈里存活得更久.

总好过不被关心. ;)

Soshi Fighting !! ♥♥♥

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I had a great day yesterday.

First, I finally watched "Fast and Furious 5".

I wish I have the driving skill like them.

飘移~~ LOL

Second, the dating.

It's been a long time no meeting him and here came the date.

Love's surrounding us. ;D ♥

And last, the gathering.

LOKE MOMO !! Put aeroplane again !!

No more next time ahh~

Next time you must 100% attend. Muahaha

I was the one who came the last and went back the first.

But I really had a great time with them.

Non-stop chatting and the time flew so fast, damn fast.

Hope our friendships will never sink and keep on going till forever.

Don't forget each other although you're making much more new friends.

The memories between us are the proves that we've known each other and appreciate it.

Let the bitter one, sad one, anger one flied away.

Get over it, forgive then forget.

Learn the lesson and alert yourself not to repeat the same mistake again.

And, I'm so happy to get all over.

No longer staying from the past.

Start moving on. ;)

I love you guys !

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May 6

TAADAA !!

The changes in me.

Err, is my appearance getting worse ?

I doubt that.

Most of them are with full make-up.

You know, I seldom take pictures without any make up on.

The Nov 08', was the first photo with zero make-up.

Still a child, who cares ?

I touched cosmetic since I was 16.

The only thing I knew was, Mascara is the most important thing.

So, my so called "full make-up" is only putting the mascara.

I don't even know what's foundation, bb cream, ect.

The very first time I put on foundation and bb cream was at IR night last year.

My sis taught me and I was like "Oh~ So simple only ah~".

Now, I still follow the make-up step that she taught me.

And, I have to admit that all the make-up stuff that I used are belong to my sis.

I spent zero on it.

Sometimes I feel guilty when I am using her stuff.

I am not that rich.

She's a freelancer and she can earn RM200++ a day but I'm not.

I'm not as gorgeous as her.

I'm not as slim as her.

I'm not as active as her.

I'm not her.

I'm not jealous of her but envy.

She is the person that I want to learn of.

So, I am proud to have her.

Teehee ~

Seriously out of topic.

After I stopped at here, I accidentally clicked the [x] button and it freaked me out.

I thought they won't save what I have written. T,T

Yes, I thought.

So, it wasn't.

I got my post back. LOL

Continue.

Words can't describe how I MISS my friends.

The form-3s and form-5s.

Life is still going on.

Some already started their courses,

Some are having sem break,

Some are still working and

Some are just staying at home and do nothing, like me.

Wasting time.

I miss you and I love you, my friends !

♥

-END-

The facts.

I did have the urge to blog.

But, I gave up on the half way most of the time.

I don't have any interesting events recently.

Lifeless.

Repeat the same thing.

I would like to work and I am willing to.

Yet sometimes I am just being too choosy.

The places, the payment and the job scope.

I just can't independent.

Those jobs like have to work alone for so many hours, I'll feel afraid.

Not like the others.

So, I lost lots of working experience, money and time.

And, I have already registered to IACT college.

Officially a college student now although it starts on June.

Somehow I still feel a little bit excited about this.

I know I definitely will feel stress to those presentation things after this.

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Okay, back to the topic. LOL

I wanna have some updates before going through my main topic.

The FACTS about me.

I AM the person who ...

- Easily said than done.

- Hate to be ignored.

- Super passive.

- Don't know how to express feelings.

- Love to get focus yet also hate.

- Love to get compliment by others.

- Sometimes feels very confident to myself but sometimes totally opposite.

- Like to observe people.

- Strong self-esteem.

- Like to collect.

- Hard to say "NO".

- Don't like to be rejected.

- Very emotional.

- Get to be moody even just a small little thing.

- Like to be sulking and won't let others know why.

- Attentive.

- Like to hide myself in my own world.

- Selfish.

- Like to think in passive way.

- Like to pretend.

- Duplicity.

- Feels lonely easily.

I ain't arrogant but cool.

I am talkative to my friends but opposite to strangers.

I like to make friends but I don't have the courage.

I hate to social.

I feel upset when my friends ignore me.

I am not cheerful.

I hate people who like to push or beat or touch my head.

Actually, sometimes I don't even know myself well.

As it changes immediately.

* Urgh, really must improve my english writing and speaking skill from now onwards.

Shame on myself.

Keep using the same vocab.

END.

April Fool ! ;P

April Fool ! ;D


Almost 1 month no any updating.
Sorry guys for the disappointment whenever you "accidentally" click into my blog.
I wanted to blog yet I don't have a topic to start.
So, should I start with the "April Fool" ? LOL


It's totally a whole new life with challenge, independent and decisive compare to my secondary life.
Job, college, job, college ...
I love the life without books, but it makes me annoying somehow.
Many things to decide, my brain was like gonna boom with the question marks explosion.


What to study ?
Where to study ?
What career I dream to be ?
Could they afford the fees ?
How if they won't be supportive ?
How if I feel regret in the half way ?


And finally I spoke out my voice inside me to my mum.
Luckily she agreed but I have a next difficult mission, is to tell my dad.
Communicating with my dad, is like stepping on a nail with your bare feet without feeling any pain.
Our generation gap is getting bigger and bigger although the age between us remains the same.
Like father, like daughter.
He is stubborn, so do I.

I really do miss my childhood.
Holding his hand, he carries me on his back whenever I fall asleep in living room.
The father-love.
He still loves me though, in different way.
I love you for sure, dad, in different way too. ♥


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This day isn't only the April Fool's Day, but my sis's born day.
We are different from the other sisters.
We chat, but not about the inside us.
We never sweet-talking.
We don't sleep on the same bed.
We seldom shopping together.
We seldom take picture together.
I never say "I love you" to her face to face.
Even "Happy Birthday", errrr, honestly, hard to me.

Love ya, SIS. ♥
Waiting for the cake. LOL

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April Fool's Day, the day without any trust between human.
Blah blah blah ~
Say whatever you like, bluffing here and there ...
"APRIL FOOL !!" SOLVED.
Don't take it serious, human.
Just kidding !
They don't mean to offend you.
If they do, let them be.
Fight them back just make your standard lower.
Be generous, be forgiveness.
You will make people go WOW.

I don't mean to offend you guys, too.
If I do, please forgive me.
Sometimes I have been so straight but I don't even realize it.
Friend always better than enemy, right ? ;D



End.

God Bless.

The earth is SERIOUSLY getting worse.

It's really easy to say, but it's hard to do.

I knew, you did pray, you sad, you mad at those human who don't even care about environment.

But, try to change your view.

Do you CARE ?

Do you GO GREEN ?

Green house has been mentioned like dozen of times, but lots of them just treat it like nobody business.

I seldom use plastic bag.

I don't even switch on the air-conditioner in my room.

I never open-burning.

I'll try my best to use public transport if the destination isn't that far.

I'm not trying to prove that how I am good at go green.

But, at least, I am better than numerous of them.

I have a "go-green-bro".

He is going to study environment engineering.

He told me that his future transport is bicycle when he was in the age of 17.

He would check the electricity were all switch off every time we're going out.

I've influenced by him.

So, I always feel so lucky that I have a brother like him.

I hate people who don't switch off the air-conditioner when they don't even use.

I hate people who like to open-burning. Even my neighbour.

I don't understand, I really don't.

Why? Why? Why?

I got no answer.

GOD BLESS.