Oct 20

OH YEAH! I'll be going to Thailand tonight.
And finally I'm done packing my stuff.
Last minute AGAIN.

Before that, I don't feel any excitement at all.
Cause, first, I actually planned to meet my friends during my sem break.
Second, I have a lot of assignment left undone!
You know me, I'm the LAST-MINUTE-GIRL.
So, it makes sense.
Third, and the most important, I CAN'T WATCH MY GIRLS' COMEBACK STAGE!
As a SONE, how can I miss that?
But since my brother will bring his laptop along, so it makes me feel better. :D
Just hope the hotel I stay has free internet.

And I already promised some of them to bring back souvenirs.
I'll try to hunt some nice stuff there.
But, I have to confess one thing here, my taste ain't that good.
Even my mum can beat me with this.
So, don't COMPLAIN. :D

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BONUS PHOTO HERE.
In case you'll miss me like hell these few days.

TAA-DAA.
Why her?
Opps, besides she's my super bias, LOT of them told me that I look like her.
For those who are totally not agree with it, HIGH 5!
I don't agree either, but I'm still happy. TEEHEE.


BYE M'SIA, HI THAILAND! :D

-END-

Oct 9

I’m doing fine. Bad actually.

Physically and mentally.

My body condition is goind down down down down down...

I'll take good care of myself, so don't worry. :D

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Communication is so much needed between human.

Without it, misunderstanding causes, trust broken, so do the relationship.

That's what mouth functioning. :D

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I love to sing, I love to dance too.

But I don't like to sing and dance at the same time. LOL.

It's exhausting.

And... I don't know what am I trying to say here. =___=

Too many things in my mind.

It hurts.

-END-

Oct 1

BLAME TWITTER.
My last post was at Sept 2, and 45 mins more it's Oct 2.
It has been a month I never do any update.
Sorry guys.

I expressed all my feelings (actually just partially) on Twitter.
So, I don't have much things to share here.

My life is still going on no matter what.
It's not like time will stop for me or whatever.
I wish I have someone to encourage me and give me some advices on life.
But, NO. I have to comfort myself and stop the negative mind grow on me myself.

My best friends live near me yet I feel they are so far to me.
I don't get the chance to contact them and it's not that I already forget them.
But it seems everyone is busy on assignments, exam, work, ect.

I can't live without friends.
Sometimes they play the important role too, even family can't defeat that.
I MISS THEM, SERIOUSLY.
I miss my secondary school life !

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Girls' Generation is going to have a comeback soon.
Although it already postponed, but it still gained a lot of attention.
Even me also felt that I love them a little bit too much.
My boy complained too. LMAO.
He adores BIG BANG, me SNSD.
And he likes Tiffany. Buahahaha JUST JOKING.

I'm so looking forward to their comeback.
So do SONEs.
Yesterday already revealed the 1st teaser.
AND OH MY GOD, Yoona is so damn freaking insane GORGOUES PRETTY.
That's why she is the face of SNSD. LOL.

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I went to my cousin's wedding on 4th of Sept(?).

He's my cousin's son!
SO CUTEEEEEE.
And he was holding my hand. ♥

I LOVE THIS.
Super satisfied with this photo as it turned out great.
TEEHEE
But it looks FAKE too, of course.

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I already finished watching the whole season of "Gossip Girl".
It's a nice drama though.
And I kind of miss this drama, haha.
Hope to improve my English through watching drama.
But urgh, I'm still not that good at it.
FINE, learn harder.

BONUS PHOTO.
Taken on last Sunday.
I just picked the nicest photo. Muahaha

I LOVE KPOP.

AND, I LOVE HIM.
HAPPY 9TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY. ♥


THE END.

September 2

THE BEST HOLIDAY EVER.

I was like going out every day this whole week.

Abandoned studies and everything that made me unhappy.

But, pretty much of sad things happened too.

What an eventful week.

I DON'T WANT TO BACK TO MY COLLEGE LIFE. I'M SERIOUS.

THE LONGER I STUDY THERE, THE MORE I'M UNHAPPY.

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I went to Mid Valley alone on Wednesday A.K.A Malaysia Day.

I took KTM and again I knew Malaysia has no hope.

Is there any improvement ?

I DON'T SEE ANY.

What's the point of just bull-shitting there and never take any actions ?

Seriously pissed off about the public transport.

Car is always the best transportation to go to your destination.

That's why the amount of car is increasing and causes traffic jam every day !

THE BIG HOLE of Malaysia is over there and these people just ignore it.

We paid tax but we earned nothing.

Keep eating our money and use it in unnecessary things.

Like building palace to show off your status.

Not that I don't love my own country, but there's nothing to be loved.

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I had my lesson that day, so I suggested my friends not to take train again.

Sunway Pyramid, such a long distance to go.

So we went there by car, and wow, reached there less than 45 mins.

How CONVENIENT it was.

Ice-skating until 6pm and THESE GUYS WERE REALLY POOR IN DECIDING WHERE TO EAT !

Keep CINCAI CINCAI but after suggesting a place then they're like not willing like that.

DUH.

WHAT YOU ALL WANT ACTUALLY ?

Not angry but if they continue like that it'll be kind of annoying.

I love these 2 girls so much.

Great editing skill. TEEHEE

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Today went to Kashin's house to dye my hair and do my assignment.

I used Liese Bubble Hair Colour Ash Brown but it ended up not greenish but reddish.

And due to my lousy skill, my hair colour ended up not even.

Argh, never mind, not mad at it but also not satisfied with it.

I LOVE HIM SO I'M AFRAID OF LOSING HIM.

I'M SO SCARED. REALLY.

-end-

August 19

The first week of 2nd semester went to an end.

It's Friday night ! :D

This semester takes me 4 months so the timetable is much more flexible than before.

I just have to go to college 3 days a week.

Friday's class is kind of annoying cause I have to wake up early and there's only one class to attend on that day.

But luckily I have Ms.Intan as our English lecturer.

It just feels different that many of them are no longer same class with us.

I miss those DCM's buddies !

They are active, talkative and friendly.

Sometimes I feel that I could hardly join them but they treat me as their friend.

*SMILE* They're just... Awesome !

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For your information, I have become an admin of Tiffany's page.

It's not what official page but a random page.

But I'm still so happy bout this cause I LOVE TIFFANY.

I want to contribute something for showing my love to her.

It sounds silly but you wouldn't know if you never experience it before.

A billion thanks to Nolf as he chose me among the rest.

Maybe because he knows me so he chose me. LOL

I don't even know that time he's managing a page and he is a huge fan of Seohyun.

I found out after I knew him couple of months.

The world is small, right ?

Or I should say, Malaysia is small ? LMAO

This is what the page looks like.
Come and support !
I'll update you guys all about Tiffany's news ! :D

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As you can listen, I have changed the song to "Almost" covered by Jessica.

I just can't stop listening it.

Her voice totally suits this song.

"I missed the time that we almost shared

I miss the love that was almost there

I miss the time that we use to kiss

At least in my dreams

Just let me take the time and reminisce

I miss the times that we never had

What happened to us we were almost there

Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had

Never almost had you"

-END-

August 11

Seriously time flies and 3 days more my semester break is going to an end.
I don't like holiday before cause I couldn't meet my friends as usual and chit-chatting at school.
But now, I wish there were an unlimited holiday.
Not that I don't have any buddy there but I'm shivering whenever I think about the second semester.
It's gonna be another tough semester.

Holiday is way too short to enjoy.


Ms. Intan revealed the top 5 students of each class today.
And as what I expected, I'm not in it.
If I were, there will be a party that organised by me. LOL

The English test was seriously difficult like shit *Maybe only for me.*
Some of my classmates complained the test with me but THEY ENDED UP GETTING INTO TOP 5!
Apalah ni, easy then easy lah, no need so considerate of me. x)
Anyway, Congratulation to those who get in top 5.
Including Kashin !!
You did well. :DD
Hwaitaeng together!!


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SM official Youtube page released Bad Girl Teaser yesterday out of a sudden.
And the music video is to Thank you as their Japanese album has being sold 800000 copies.
I just knew it after I watched the music video.
Honestly I felt a little disappointed cause it's so plain and no any solo shot of them.
But I appreciated them as they even made a music video just for thanking.
It's enough. :D
They are saving the power and I believe they will make a perfect comeback and make many of them know their hidden talent. Teehee~


Here are some screenshots by me...

Her sexiness is killing me !!!!

The coolest bad girl ever !!!

OMG ! The best screenshot. Buahaha
GODDESS

Her eyes will kill you a million times.

Hyoyeon !! She's getting more line now and I'm so happy to see that. DANCING QUEEN JJANG !!

Sooyoung recently is getting sexier and sexier !! Can't take my eyes off her during their live performance.

The cutest bad girl !! LOL

The black pearl is riding on a bike !!
COOL

Another GODDESS.

I don't care what others think of them.
BITCH.SLUT. It's up to them.
They are always the number 1 to me.
I love other girl groups too, like Miss A, After School, 2NE1, T-ara, Kara and so on.
Cause I know how hard they work, they've been through all the hardships since they're young.
I appreciate them for entertaining us.
So actually we don't have to right to criticize them.

I.L.O.V.E.K.P.O.P.


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See these scratches ?
I dropped it many times but luckily it's still alive.

Wish to buy a new phone but I don't want to waste money cause I have a lot of things to buy.
And Girls' Generation concert that held on February next year in Singapore !!!

Just some random photo.
The weather is too HOT.

END

August 1

Abandoned my own blog for so long, and now it's already the 1st day of August.

And today is our 7 months anniversary. Teehee :D

My semester is going to end soon and I'm going to miss some of them.

Crazy friends yet they're serious when it's the time to do their work.

I screwed up my final presentations and I was so upset.

I still can't get over the nervousness when I saw all of them were staring at me.

But be positive, at least I've already improved a lot compared to my high school oral test.

LOL.

Today is my bias, Tiffany's birthday !

I just love her everything. :D

Saengil Chukahae~~ :3

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ATTENTION: THE POST BELOW IS EXPRESSING MY TRUE FEELINGS. IT MAY DESTROY MY IMPRESSION IN YOU.

Feels so sorry to my sis.

I've being so immature.

She is so inclusive to me but I just don't appreciate what she has done to me.

I'm really lousy in expressing my feelings.

I write and type well, but when it comes to speaking it out loud, I just can't.

To my family, my friends, I'm the type who always keep quiet and like holding a lot inside me.

Yeah, I admit it.

I don't know how to speak it out, I feel embarrassing.

And also I care about what others think of me.

I want a good impression to others.

But all ended up messing it up.

And my impression to them eventually destroyed.

Maybe I care a lot, and at last it goes to the opposite way.

I don't want it to happen, but it just happened.

Sometimes I don't know myself well too.

Some of them told me that I'm mysterious, maybe even myself also don't know what exactly I am.

I lied a lot.

Even to my family.

I lied, cause I don't want them to get mad at me.

I lied, cause I think it's better they don't know the real story.

I lied, cause I think it's harmless.

But I didn't think much of the consequences.

Karma.

I deserve it.

I used to make up fake-stories, and it totally broke the trust between me and my family.

Our relationships aren't as good as others think of us, I seldom talk at home.

I never have a heart-to-heart talk with my sis before.

What 姐妹情深? I never feel it until now.

So I used to envy those who are close to their family.

I don't actually have a person who can make me release the evil-me.

No offence to my friends and him, I keep some secrets from friends too.

Some secrets that contain the evilness.

I just can't tell, cause I don't want to destroy my good impression to them.

I just want to show the good side of me but not the bad one.

It's actually the worst.

I'm not the person who you think that who I am.

I am worse than that.

A lot.

I still want to believe that I'm a good person.

But, no more excuses.

Don't try to convince or comfort me that I'm actually good.

No, you're wrong.

My family already disappointed in me.

But still accept me as their daughter, their sister.

I'm such a failure right ?

No showing any appreciation to them, keep on blaming them with ridiculous reasons.

I don't know what to do.

I just dare to express my feelings here but not in front of them.

I love them, my family, my friends.

But why I keep on doing wrong things and make them disappointed ?

I gave a lot of empty promises.

Promised them that I will do well in my exams, but the lousy results always made them sad.

I did want to do things well, but every time my perseverance had just gone at the end.

I just don't dare, don't dare to tell the truth.

I already used to cover it with lies.

I'm not perfect, far far away from "perfect".

But just feels like the negative side of me starting to control me again.

I want to be positive, so I act to be positive.

I thought it will guide me to positive.

But still the negative controls me easily.

Think too much is always my weakness.

So does timid in me.

I'm a coward.

Showing only the good side of me just because of afraid losing them.

I'm scared if I'm a bad person to them, they will leave me.

And I'm all alone.

I lose the courage.

The main reason I love Girls' Generation, is that I want to be like them.

They're perfect.

Their appearance, their kindness, their talents, everything.

I don't love myself.

That's why I don't have confidence.

They used to say we have to love ourselves first before we love the others.

But, I don't see any reason to love myself.

I'm not that pretty.

I'm not that slim.

I'm not that kind-hearted.

I'm not that clever.

I'm just, unnecessary.

They made me feel like I'm the unnecessary one.

They have a perfect daughter like my sis.

They have a clever son like my bro.

But never for me.

I don't know why I have these negative personalities.

I remember I have a great childhood.

My dad loved me until my sis was jealous of me.

I treated it naturally.

But I'd gone worse the older I grew.

From angel to devil, it's just so easy.

Would I go to hell when I die ?

Why am I so annoying ?

END

July 15

The special post ever.

This is the 100th post and finally it contains some photos that taken by me.

July 13, yup, it was my born day.

Err, actually it was my mum who suffered from giving me birth, but why am I the one who celebrated it but not my mum?

Hmmm..

Anyway, I had a great time that day.

Some of them couldn't attend the celebration due to the exams, felt a bit disappointed but never mind, still can yam cha next time. :D

We had our dinner at Momo Paradise.

Chit-chatting there, and I was so happy as there's been a long time no meeting them.

It reminded me my high school life.

SPM stressed us yet we had a good time being together.

Miss my high school life so much.

College life is much more stressful AND no any gossiping there.

I find myself hard to make friends there.

My class has a lot of "gangs", they made specific friends.

And English, always the obstacle which makes me hard to communicate with them.

So, you will see me there a quiet person but not a talkative person in my daily life.

Skip.

After we were going to have our dessert, Kashin and Momo ran into me with a cheese cake and I thought they both went toilet that time.

I felt so touching as I didn't expect at all.

Their wish and their attendance on the celebration are so enough for me.

It's cheese cake!

I wonder where they bought and which flavour of cheese cake was it as it was so delicious!

Finished our dinner there, we headed to Kashin's for sing k time!

Such a cute pig. LOL

Just focus on these 2 pretty. ;D

Time to back home.

When I reached my house, then suddenly he gave me a present.

I was like OMG, I thought he was not going to give me present.

Felt like wanted to cry that time.

Next, the hidden present in my bag.

Another surprise!

So bad lah them, bomb me so many times. Lol

And it's a photo book made by Kashin.

*o* My expression that time.

Totally love it man!!!

So appreciate the presents they gave me.

<3 you all!!

And here the end of the day.

Thank you so much to all my friends whom love me and I love you all too!!!

You all gave me a great memory!

:D

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July 15

Another happy news here.

FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY!

I received the dvd this afternoon.

And I'm so craving to watch it.

Not in laptop, but the television.

So, I have to wait.

Wait until nobody is watching television. Wahaha

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Lastly, assignmentS really freak me out!

END

I love GG. ♥

Don't call yourself as a S♥ne if you hate or just love one of them.

S♥ne loves all of them.

Their 4th anniversary is coming soon.

5th of August.

I love you,

Taeyeon

Jessica

Sunny

Tiffany

Hyoyeon

Yuri

Sooyoung

Yoona

Seohyun,

Girls' Generation. ♥

July 3

An update post without any photo again.

I think I'm not so into taking photos anymore.

Guess what ?

I never take a single photo with him although we've been together for half year.

Woah, amazing.

I can't believe it's July now.

The time is way too fast.

Anyway, I went to carnival yesterday.

I was so glad to meet some of my friends that I used to be with during my secondary school life.

Everybody have their own life to go on, right ?

Meet new friends, new life and new challenge.

I'm just sad that I'm not the one who used to be accompanying them anymore.

I'm happy as long as they're happy.

It's enough for me.

Yesterday was my happiest day ever.

Why ?

Meeting friends, dating and no disturbance from my parents.

Usually, if I'm going to be late back home, my dad sure will complain to my mum.

Then, my mum will phone call me and tell me to be home as soon as possible.

And it totally spoils my mood.

It's like when the drama reaches the climax and the electricity cut off out of a sudden.

You know me, right ?

It happens whenever I hang out with my friends and I totally sick of it.

A bit of freedom will do, okay ?

Is that really so hard for them to give me some little space ?

My friends are all complaining that whenever they ask me to hang out, my answer is always a NO.

I just hope that when I'm officially a 18 girl, they will give me what I want, freedom.

Then I will never absent any of the yam cha time.

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I have downloaded the Qvod player just for watching the US dramas.

And I'm watching "Pretty Little Liars" lately.

It's kind of a suspense drama and I love it.

It makes you want to know the answer quickly by watching it the whole day, I'm the one.

And it makes you forgetting any presentations and assignments, actually I have 2 presentations tomorrow.

Oh God.

BRING IT ON, nope, I mean, can the time stops here ? If it could.

Urgh, let it be.

I don't want to be nervous for nothing again.

Time to stop now, it's drama time again !

Bye.

Teehee.

June 24

"All about Girls' Generation Paradise in Phuket" to be Released on June 30th!

I've already bought it through online and I'm waiting it to arrive my house on July !

I think this is a must-have to Sone as its content is so so so so attractive !

Like, their trip to phuket,

their hit music videos,

history of them,

unreleased version of "Hoot" music video,

videos of SBS programs which they have been appeared,

music video "Echo",

and their messages to family, friends and fans as well as touching stories are all included.

It is a great collection to me and it just cost me RM200++ only.

It is really worth-buying !

I'm not wasting my money okay.

EXCITED EXCITED EXCITED.

TEEHEE. ;D

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The very first time I skipped my school.

Not purposely of course, cause of the common reason, I woke up at afternoon.

Urgh, I felt so guilty right now.

As today I supposed to go for the meeting and my English class.

Seemed like miss a lot of things.

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I installed 2 games to my laptop yesterday, angry bird and call of duty, some random war shooting game.

I'm addicted with it but it's quite hard for me to complete the level.

I think I've already died for 1000++ times. LOL

But at last, my bro completed the whole game.

Grrr, later I'll go challenge it again.

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Learning not to be angry easily.

Learning not to be bothered by others with their harsh comments and opinions.

7 days to go. ♥

生气

想说用华语骂比较顺

很久没有骂人了

现在很想发泄一下我的怒气

虽然又是关于我的偶像 少女时代

相信很多人看到都觉得很闷了

不想看的话 就关掉吧

隐忍了很久 我身旁的人 有一些都是anti少女时代的

我都没关系

他们不喜欢是他们的事

人不犯我 我不犯人

但是最近有一个讲话不经大脑的人

什么?! "这种整容的东西你们都喜欢?"

okay, fine. 我忍.

但他还继续.

我已经很好了咯 没有破口大骂已经算神仙了

其实第一眼看到他 就对他没什么有好感

没想到 现在又让我增加对他的反感

我想说 整了又怎样?!

他们有才华是不争的事实

她们漂亮 但她们的人气能撑到现在这么出名

并不是因为只有靠外表

如果只靠外表 她们不可能会在娱乐圈撑这么久

而且 如果一个女生外表不好看的话

能在娱乐圈生存吗?

注重看外表的是你们 批评人家靠整容变美的又是你们

那你们到底想怎样?

靠整容变美就是羞耻了吗?

这是别人的选择 你们又有什么资格去批评?

grrr 很生气
他们这些anti就是有办法挑起我的怒气

不喜欢就滚开 没必要特地说出来 弄到别人生气

对自己有好处吗?

招人家讨厌罢了

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