只想发泄.

差不多整个星期没出过家门了.

变到自闭去.

有点不想讲话.

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最近的生活作息变到很乱.

每天睡到四 五点才起床.

直接就skip掉早上和中午了.

然后就会觉得怎么这么快就晚上了.

PPS也越来越闷 我有兴趣的 全部给我看完了.

Facebook也是 看完news feed 就没东西看.

最后 找不到东西做 直接在那边发呆.

一发呆就又会乱乱想东西.

最近有个很可怜的想法一直占据我的头脑.

就是 觉得朋友们和我的距离慢慢远了.

很痛心.

我知道我不应该这么想.

是我自己不主动找朋友聊天.

但是 就是不像之前这么好了.

或许以前一直玩在一块儿 现在很不习惯吧.

不晓得她们最近发生什么事了.

不晓得她们最近有没有伤心的事.

开心的事 想发牢骚的事.

有些事 事情过得久了 就不想再被提起.

我本身就不是那种会主动找人来攀谈的人.

总是等着别人主动来找自己.

或许这样我会觉得自己在那个人的心目中是有一定的位置吧.

我很愿意倾听 但表达能力很烂.

所以她们都说和我说心事 我都不会给反应. 哈哈.

想想下 我这个人怎么这么失败. 囧.

连他妈妈和我第一次相处过后 都说我不是那种socialize的人.

我常常觉得 信息比讲电话好太多了.

知道为什么吗?

因为讲电话有时候难免会尴尬 找不出话题.

我最怕的就是尴尬的时候了.

所以我脑子就会一直自动地想话题.

想这个 想那个 就造成我不是个直率的人.

我会拐弯抹角 避免伤己伤人.

所以我就特别喜欢那些可以互亏对方但不会伤感情的朋友和情侣.

因为有时候想太多 也会累.

太久没说话了 心里想说的话一下子就爆发出来.

长时间不和人沟通也不是件好事.

好想姐妹们.

心里有千言万语 但一看到她们 全部都成空白.

如果家人是空气 那姐们们就是我的食物来源.

和她们相处 会让我得到力量.

我有固定的朋友 我分得清谁是好朋友 谁只是普通朋友.

虽然这样分有点恶劣 但我相信大部分的人都这样吧?

我很怕交新朋友 虽然会很有趣 而且有新鲜感.

但 相对的 得相处很久才能把那个人列为好朋友的阶级.

因为姐妹们在我心目中的位置是很难取代的.

所以其实我的观念就是说 朋友要交就是一辈子的.

如果是拿来利用的话 那还交来干嘛?

有点觉得我在这个社会很难立足. 哈哈.

我很难信任别人 并不是因为我有一个不好的童年 纯粹是个性使然.

我一旦信任了 就是一辈子的事.

果然江山易改 本性难移.

这些坏习惯我想改很久了 但它们就像赖在我身上不走一样.

不过庆幸的是 已经很久没发作了.

有可能是因为现在小姨妈找我? 呵呵

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最近朋友们都说我很难联系.

真的是很抱歉 我的电话好像有问题了.

不是我没回复信息 就是我没收到她们的信息.

唉 感到有罪恶感.

对不起 对不起 对不起 !!

给你们磕头.

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继续唱歌.

让自己有mood一点.

拜.

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May 17

Brand new background and header !

Today ain't a special day.

I just got bored with the previous background and now I feel so fresh ! ;)

I saw this in their Japan official website and...

I'm too excited till just kept on screaming.

"Gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous" are what all I think about.

Their individual photos came out good, like the best !

Very fantasy !

And I would like to mention Hyoyeon here.

Like finally, they gave her a good-looking and NORMAL hairstyle.

I appreciate it and wow, she looks so good here !

To those haters out there, Hyoyeon IS a pretty girl too !

I'm not trying to persuade you all to like her.

BUT, don't be so mean to say her UGLY.

This is really hurt.

Never mind, 越有争论性的人或话题 在娱乐圈里存活得更久.

总好过不被关心. ;)

Soshi Fighting !! ♥♥♥

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I had a great day yesterday.

First, I finally watched "Fast and Furious 5".

I wish I have the driving skill like them.

飘移~~ LOL

Second, the dating.

It's been a long time no meeting him and here came the date.

Love's surrounding us. ;D ♥

And last, the gathering.

LOKE MOMO !! Put aeroplane again !!

No more next time ahh~

Next time you must 100% attend. Muahaha

I was the one who came the last and went back the first.

But I really had a great time with them.

Non-stop chatting and the time flew so fast, damn fast.

Hope our friendships will never sink and keep on going till forever.

Don't forget each other although you're making much more new friends.

The memories between us are the proves that we've known each other and appreciate it.

Let the bitter one, sad one, anger one flied away.

Get over it, forgive then forget.

Learn the lesson and alert yourself not to repeat the same mistake again.

And, I'm so happy to get all over.

No longer staying from the past.

Start moving on. ;)

I love you guys !

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May 6

TAADAA !!

The changes in me.

Err, is my appearance getting worse ?

I doubt that.

Most of them are with full make-up.

You know, I seldom take pictures without any make up on.

The Nov 08', was the first photo with zero make-up.

Still a child, who cares ?

I touched cosmetic since I was 16.

The only thing I knew was, Mascara is the most important thing.

So, my so called "full make-up" is only putting the mascara.

I don't even know what's foundation, bb cream, ect.

The very first time I put on foundation and bb cream was at IR night last year.

My sis taught me and I was like "Oh~ So simple only ah~".

Now, I still follow the make-up step that she taught me.

And, I have to admit that all the make-up stuff that I used are belong to my sis.

I spent zero on it.

Sometimes I feel guilty when I am using her stuff.

I am not that rich.

She's a freelancer and she can earn RM200++ a day but I'm not.

I'm not as gorgeous as her.

I'm not as slim as her.

I'm not as active as her.

I'm not her.

I'm not jealous of her but envy.

She is the person that I want to learn of.

So, I am proud to have her.

Teehee ~

Seriously out of topic.

After I stopped at here, I accidentally clicked the [x] button and it freaked me out.

I thought they won't save what I have written. T,T

Yes, I thought.

So, it wasn't.

I got my post back. LOL

Continue.

Words can't describe how I MISS my friends.

The form-3s and form-5s.

Life is still going on.

Some already started their courses,

Some are having sem break,

Some are still working and

Some are just staying at home and do nothing, like me.

Wasting time.

I miss you and I love you, my friends !

♥

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