The facts.

I did have the urge to blog.

But, I gave up on the half way most of the time.

I don't have any interesting events recently.

Lifeless.

Repeat the same thing.

I would like to work and I am willing to.

Yet sometimes I am just being too choosy.

The places, the payment and the job scope.

I just can't independent.

Those jobs like have to work alone for so many hours, I'll feel afraid.

Not like the others.

So, I lost lots of working experience, money and time.

And, I have already registered to IACT college.

Officially a college student now although it starts on June.

Somehow I still feel a little bit excited about this.

I know I definitely will feel stress to those presentation things after this.

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Okay, back to the topic. LOL

I wanna have some updates before going through my main topic.

The FACTS about me.

I AM the person who ...

- Easily said than done.

- Hate to be ignored.

- Super passive.

- Don't know how to express feelings.

- Love to get focus yet also hate.

- Love to get compliment by others.

- Sometimes feels very confident to myself but sometimes totally opposite.

- Like to observe people.

- Strong self-esteem.

- Like to collect.

- Hard to say "NO".

- Don't like to be rejected.

- Very emotional.

- Get to be moody even just a small little thing.

- Like to be sulking and won't let others know why.

- Attentive.

- Like to hide myself in my own world.

- Selfish.

- Like to think in passive way.

- Like to pretend.

- Duplicity.

- Feels lonely easily.

I ain't arrogant but cool.

I am talkative to my friends but opposite to strangers.

I like to make friends but I don't have the courage.

I hate to social.

I feel upset when my friends ignore me.

I am not cheerful.

I hate people who like to push or beat or touch my head.

Actually, sometimes I don't even know myself well.

As it changes immediately.

* Urgh, really must improve my english writing and speaking skill from now onwards.

Shame on myself.

Keep using the same vocab.

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April Fool ! ;P

April Fool ! ;D


Almost 1 month no any updating.
Sorry guys for the disappointment whenever you "accidentally" click into my blog.
I wanted to blog yet I don't have a topic to start.
So, should I start with the "April Fool" ? LOL


It's totally a whole new life with challenge, independent and decisive compare to my secondary life.
Job, college, job, college ...
I love the life without books, but it makes me annoying somehow.
Many things to decide, my brain was like gonna boom with the question marks explosion.


What to study ?
Where to study ?
What career I dream to be ?
Could they afford the fees ?
How if they won't be supportive ?
How if I feel regret in the half way ?


And finally I spoke out my voice inside me to my mum.
Luckily she agreed but I have a next difficult mission, is to tell my dad.
Communicating with my dad, is like stepping on a nail with your bare feet without feeling any pain.
Our generation gap is getting bigger and bigger although the age between us remains the same.
Like father, like daughter.
He is stubborn, so do I.

I really do miss my childhood.
Holding his hand, he carries me on his back whenever I fall asleep in living room.
The father-love.
He still loves me though, in different way.
I love you for sure, dad, in different way too. ♥


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This day isn't only the April Fool's Day, but my sis's born day.
We are different from the other sisters.
We chat, but not about the inside us.
We never sweet-talking.
We don't sleep on the same bed.
We seldom shopping together.
We seldom take picture together.
I never say "I love you" to her face to face.
Even "Happy Birthday", errrr, honestly, hard to me.

Love ya, SIS. ♥
Waiting for the cake. LOL

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April Fool's Day, the day without any trust between human.
Blah blah blah ~
Say whatever you like, bluffing here and there ...
"APRIL FOOL !!" SOLVED.
Don't take it serious, human.
Just kidding !
They don't mean to offend you.
If they do, let them be.
Fight them back just make your standard lower.
Be generous, be forgiveness.
You will make people go WOW.

I don't mean to offend you guys, too.
If I do, please forgive me.
Sometimes I have been so straight but I don't even realize it.
Friend always better than enemy, right ? ;D



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